Rainbownerdsprinkels

Empty promises...so many empty promises, I really should be ashamed. Anyway not why i'm writing this, I wanted to make an apology to anyone who ever followed me or anything, I know that I haven't been on in probably a million years, but I figured this needed to be said.


Looking back on my page back from when I was like 11 or 12 I always felt embarrassed, there were just too many spelling errors and cringing everywhere (make note there will still be some in here grammar and spelling are not my talent, but I will try). I just wanted to say to anyway who ever followed me or liked my art, thank you so much, you made some 12 year old who didn't really appreciate anything that she did feel special (no matter how many annoying things I said about my art I really did appreciate everything, but ugh! Those were so annoying i'm so sorry for anyone who had to endure those). The truth was I didn't mean to write those as like baiting people, honestly I didn't, I can't remember why I did all those, but i'm sure I thought it was the right thing to do. I might have thought that I was just warning people or maybe I was being modest, but like a year after I realized that it just looks like baiting and does no one any good. Overall I am very sorry for all that, and thank you to everyone for not cutting my head off, because if I was you guys I would've!


Okay moving on to the way I talked, this part is a real challenge. I don't even know why I used to talk the way I did, with all caps, too many smiley faces, exaggerated emoticons, and it just had so many mistakes it honestly makes me cringe just thinking about it. I think I did it because my smart 11 or 12 year old brain was like, "Hmm look at all these popular people, they do caps and weird emoticons and people really like them?" Then my smart brain decided to do the same because I thought its what made people likable (I know idiot right?). The point is all of it was incredibly stupid and if I could delete every comment I ever made I would, every person deserved a detailed review of why their art was amazing, not yelling and smiley faces. I really am sorry for every comment I made on someones page who really deserved better, if I could start over and take everything back, I would.


Lastly I don't know if this one ever actually happened, but I feel like all kids are mean at some point right? If I was ever cold, rude, a brat, annoying, stupid, dumb, or anything else besides kind, I am truly sorry. I never meant to be rude to anyone, i'm sorry if we ever got into fights, i'm sorry if I made you upset, i'm sorry if I said anything about your art, i'm sorry if I ever said anything about you, and most of all, i'm sorry if I ever said anything to make you feel unhappy. I never meant to do anything to anyone and like I said before I don't remember being mean to anyone, but it was so long ago I could've completely forgot. 


Now I know what you're thinking, why now? Well the truth is this journal was long over due (I probably should've done it before I "died", but hey now is better than never), so yes if anyone is reading this I thank you for everything and apologize for everything. I really appreciate no one socking me in the mouth. I was just some stupid kid who felt important with around 400 followers? I honestly probably just thought that it was the way to get more friends or something (including one time submitting one of my art pieces to 100 groups, can you believe it, I was so clueless). Even though back then I knew and still know today that fans don't matter you should be posting art for yourself, I guess fans made me really happy, it made me see that maybe I did have talent, so I guess that all just went to my head and I tried to be cool and well we all know where that went. Overall even though it was for myself I also felt that it was important to have friends too, but you cant smiley face and scream your ways to friends, your talents prove otherwise. I feel really embarrassed writing all this because I really am ashamed to write that I wanted fans and I just feel so awful, but in a way it also makes me feel better to know that i'm (hopefully) making up for all that.


To sum up this extremely long message, i'm honestly sorry for all the terrible things I did on this website, I hope we can all still be friends! Just adding this just in case I don't think I will ever be "coming back" I made a new account that I was going to try and start over from there, and I still might, but I don't know if I will. The whole deadline, always have to post, finish your art fast so you can post this week, you never post, and etc, always stressed me out and it made art less fun for me. If anyone ever noticed art takes me a long time and when I don't have inspiration it really is the last thing I want to do, when I was on DA I guess I felt like I always had to have this great piece of art all the time and it just stressed me out. Overall even if I did it would be on a completely new account, but I doubt I ever will.


Thank you to all my friends and followers for everything you did to make DA awesome, i'm really sorry for everything! Even if no one is reading this xD It still makes me feel better to write it (get it off my conscious and all)







-Your friend with horrible grammar
Rainbownerdsprinkles

I found my thing I use to draw C:

I know that i havent been on in a week or two